So, I have decided to redo my reason for the 90 day challenge. Not that my previous reason wasn't a reason, more that, I feel the need to admit to myself that this is going to be very hard for me.
For my whole life, I have been active. I played softball in grade school, was a pom pom girl and dancer in high school and after high school I taught aerobics for 12 years as well as did some personal training. I was always busy and active while working full time as a paralegal.
Although I taught a ton of classes and worked out a lot, I never was the size I wanted to be. I guess I fell victim to the "if I weighed a certain amount, I would be happy". But as we all know this isn't the truth. I had a distorted image of myself and no matter what, I would judge myself.
Although deep down, I am happy with my life, honestly, I still fall victim to the weight/size issue. I admit it. I look at other people and think, no matter their size, I am bigger than them. Sad, I know but I can't help it.
Having 3 kids only made it harder to work out when I was indeed tired. I would make up excuses when I was working out and for the last 10 years, I will admit, I have not given it 100%. I would always say "next time I will work out harder".
In November, I started Cross Fit and for the first time, I felt like I found the motivation I needed. I felt like I could see my body get stronger although the scale didn't change. And for the first time in my entire life, I became ok with my body. I am not 100% there yet, but I am working on it.
Knowing I have to watch what I eat, I didn't like the idea of watching what I ate. I am a Type A personality and the thought of having to count calories or admit to eating something bad didn't appeal to me. I don't like giving up control. So when this 90 day came up, I thought it was time for me to give 100%, to hold myself accountable and prove that if I give it my all, I can do what I want to do and learn to be happy with myself. To show myself that pushing myself a little more will pay off and when I hold myself accountable, I can get the body I want and desire. Although it has taken me a long time to get to this point in my life, I know that it will all be worth it.
I fall victim to the stress munching and eating out of bordem so I am on a journey to change my body for the good. Getting older had made me realize it is now or never and my goal is to be as healthy as I can be.
My nutritional goals:
* supplement one meal (sometimes 2) with a Vega-One Nutritional Shake
* no impulse snacking with junk food
* consume 64oz water a day
* limit myself to one cup of coffee a day (very tough one)
* I am not going to give myself a "free day" for I feel that I don't need a full day to be able to binge. I would rather allow myself to go through the week and play each day by day.
My fitness goals:
* work out 7 days a week in some capacity
* to be able to do 10 pull-ups unassisted
* to be able to do 10 full unassisted push ups
